These days are not uneventful by any means. I wish they were. Maybe then I could catch my breath. So much has been going on: school; sick kiddies and dealing with the Future Mr. X. Ugh, knowing that I will forever have to deal with him does not make me happy. There are moments where I feel like we are on the same page and other moments when I wonder exactly what in the hell was I thinking?
Does love really make people blind and ignorant to things that otherwise would not have been allowed to happen? I really think it does. I was in blissful love. This is not a smart place to be. Blissful love is, well, full of ignorance, or at least the inability or desire to see what is going on around you. Yeah, I was Blissfully in Love. I would have done, and did a LOT, to make that man happy.
But my eyes have been opened, the curtains are pulled back and my eyes are still adjusting to the light. Seeing someone you use to be with romantically for years in a new light is a little difficult at first. It has to be awkward for him too. I mean, we were two people bound by marriage and forever connected through our children.
Now, there are some things I want to be ignorant about: what stupid thing he did that day, his whereabouts, so on and so forth. Not knowing some of these things would make me blissfully happy. And, for right now, it helps with the adjustment due to the change in our relationship. Ahh… bliss, bliss, sweet bliss.
Thursday, May 06, 2010
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